Tuesday, September 14, 2010

Sigh, cry...

Chemo round 10:  another hospital stay, another bunch of bills...30 more weeks of this!  Ugh!
I know, I know....hang in there, chin up, have faith, just keep swimming....
It's hard to keep a good attitude while you watch your child deal with getting his insides fried and getting so skinny, you can't find any fat on his body to give him the shot he needs.  It hurts enough to make a grown man cry, but he doesn't...but he winces in pain, pain that I am causing him...it's breaking my heart!

Maybe I shouldn't write about the hard days.  Not very inspiring is it.

Well, here is the part where I count my many blessings:
1.  Radiation will be over on Thursday! :)
2.  My friend, Jenene, helped me clean out the freezers...less mess, less stress!
3.  Jake has not had the worse side effects from Radiation and Chemo.
4.  The swelling is getting better.
5.  I can still get Jake to smile...most of the time.
6.  I received some beautiful flowers on Sunday to remind me that I am loved.
7.  One of my sweet Primary girls made me some cute magnets to put on my fridge.
8.  I still have Hope!

5 comments:

Kellie said...

I love you guys so much. I wish there was something I could do for you. Is there a good time to come and visit?

Jill Heaps said...

I LOVE you Rose, that's all there is to it! :) (You CAN do this, You WILL do this!)

fern said...

;-) hugs

Phil said...

You're doing what my wife tells me to do all the time: Take it one day at a time and look for the small silver linings...

Lizzie Fizzie said...

Sometimes you gotta face the bad days head on, because that's how we know how much the good days count. So sulk and cry and feel bad. And when your done, throw away the empty carton, push the tissues aside and fight. Period. Love you guys, your in my prayers.